Its been roughly a month.
Ive been really busy and stressed, therefore eating more.
Ive only gained 6 pounds.
Im going to look good during spring break and summer and prom and the rest of my life,..
I will, I can, I'll do it.

Ive been feeling like shit lately.
I starting conditioning so im tired all the time.
And all I want to do is eat.
eat,eat,eat,
I come home and binge.
then, I come on here and feel like a fat cow.
retarded!

I really want to look good for the game on new years' day. Im going over to my boyfriend's house and I really want to impress him, since I wont see him until then.
Go Bulldogs!!

I told my boyfriend of 1 year, and his family that I only eat chicken because I am trying to become a vegetarian.
I went over to his house for dinner today and his dad said that he had beef, which I dont mind eating as long as it isnt lamb.
well 30 minutes later he tells me it is lamb. fucking bastard.

Im so wierd when it comes to finding thinspiration.
I will fascinate about 1 person for up to 3-4 months and then get sick of them and start with another.

ive been through:

fergie ( longest one)
Scarlett Johansson
Heidi Klum
and my most recent one is Diane Kruger.

ok,, that last pic was really bad.. here is a better one.

hi this is me



and this is my fat body.



ive lost only 6 pounds.. but all of that is going to change... with your help

hi, im new here if you couldnt tell. im here for the same reason you are. I feel like a loser because everytime i try to fast, i cave in. so hopefully this whole community thing will help me push myself. does anyone want to join me ?